I’m sure you, like me, at times feel as though you may have “lost your way”. When that happens, we can either keep struggling on or we can decide to make a change. Well, on the first day of 2018 I decided to make a change. I realized I had put my photography above everything else I did, or should have been doing. So, at the beginning of the new year, I decided to reorient myself to where I believe my focus needed to be. My faith and my real calling.
I didn’t start out with a time limit for refocusing, I just decided that I was going to focus on only my spiritual habits and ministry, (I’m a volunteer youth minister), and lay my photography down for a bit. In 2017, I really put most of my effort and my focus on my photography as a career, and due to this I became obsessed with always thinking about, watching, listening, or doing, something around photography. It is good to expound on one’s skills, but it shouldn’t have come at the expense of my faith practices.
Many of us start out a new year with a new plan. I honestly had no idea what I was going to do differently up until Dec. 31, 2017…maybe not until the New Year itself.
I am first called to have a relationship with Jesus Christ. My next calling is to my wife. And then comes my ministry life. In my Christ relationship, I had no focus, no disciplines I was keeping with, and honestly, I was not working at building that relationship. In ministry, it was always coming last minute, with planning for lessons, etc, almost to the point that I was ready to say “I was once called, but no more…” and lay that part of my life down so to speak. (Not that I was quitting ministry, it just wasn’t going to be a primary focus)
Some 10 years ago now, I experienced God’s express calling to vocational ministry, and when you go so long with that calling not fulfilled, you begin to seek a way to either fulfill it outside of God’s will and timing, or you deny that calling altogether and go on to something different. I began to seek other ways to fulfill it outside of His plan, and probably wasn’t even coming to Him for His wisdom and plan.
The one relationship that stayed strong was that with my wife. She is so spiritually wise when I am weak. We would have conversations about photography and ministry and career, and she would be the one to continuously try to tell me ministry needs to be my focus…that God has called and is calling me to something.
For the first 90 days of 2018, I had nothing to do with photography at all. Well, actually, the 3rd Saturday of March, I finally got to do a family session with my in-laws and then on the last Saturday, I photographed our local Joy Prom (special needs prom). During that time, I have had daily bible reading, prayer time (written), listened to various faith based or ministry based podcasts, and put more effort into my work with the youth. This activity reignited my love for youth ministry, and my walk with Christ. I needed this time for sure.
After completing the family and Joy Prom photos, my photography side has been reignited as well. But this time, it will be different. I will still seek to grow in my skills and abilities in an art I love, but I will have balance between my everyday work, my ministry, faith life, and my art. I will not allow my focus to become my photography over the other more important parts of my life.
So with that, I say I am back. I will seek clients I want to work with, and still seek to serve them the best I can. If you are in need of a portrait photographer, for your family or teen, to serve you and provide you with a custom experience, then give me a call.